Desires of my Heart

Growing up was always a challenge. I had many desires in life. I had to compete harder than most people in things I wanted to do. People always looked at me like they never seen a person like me before. There were a lot of whisperers and stares on daily if I was out. To this day its still the same. Time hasn't changed when it comes to people with special need or disabilities. People have yet to teach their children to treat others with respect and kindness.

I was told many times by my Mom and Mama in the most loving way that I probably wouldn't be anybody in this world because people wouldn't ever give me the chance to be somebody, for that matter ever find a man to love me for who I was. I think they tried to proctect me for the possibility if it came true. They loved me so that they made sure that somehow I would be o.k. in this world even if I had to live with them forever. I had desires of being a Teacher growing up and one day even being a Mother. That was my ideal dream. I remember being in my room sitting in front of my t.v. and seeing a commercial with a baby crawling and plotting how I could break the t.v. to take the baby. I was seven years old at that time. I wanted to one day have lots of babies. I loved babies since I was small.

There came a time when my Uncles had dancing ball rooms, I believe I was about Thirteen at the time and I so wanted to help out and work and they never would invite me but would invite my little sister that was two years younger than me. I never understood why they wouldn't let me. There were times I thought it was the way I looked that maybe I wouldn't attract business. My sister was even flown out to Houston to go do summer work over at the Ball room and I was left behind. That, for the longest time hurt. I knew that I could do as good as a job as my sister. So, when I finished high school and enrolled in college, I set out to find a job. I was determined to work. I filled out many applications at least twenty. When I would go get my application they would look at me like I was crazy. I only got called for an interview three times, Mr. Gattis, (was a waste of my time) she looked at me and right off told me they already had all the people they needed. Call center for Time Warner was the same thing, I passed the exam and was told the same thing. Last one was Dairy Queen, there was when my journey started.

Emilia was the manager at Dairy Queen, she was like no other that I had met. She looked at me and smiled and said, "Hi, How are you?". For the first time I knew this interview was going to be different. She gave me an opportunity that nobody else would, she hired me right on the spot. Was the best feeling in the world to be independent and to be working a real job. I was able to break a lot of people fear of speaking to me. It got to the point they would ask for me at times so I would serve them. It was a once of a life time for me to feel normal for once. I got so good at this job I knew exactly what my regulars wanted and I would already have our cooks start on the orders. Working at Dairy Queen was always fun for me. This job was so easy and I learned to do everything from Ice cream to Cooking in the back and even doing inventory at the end of the month to calling in our inventory to get delivered. I even was trusted to move up the ladder and get promoted to crew leader which was like a manager but third in line. I lasted there over three years until I met the love of... (To be continued)

When there is a Will there is a Way. I love this saying. I was one to never give up and I was very persistent. Anybody that truly knows me will tell you that I will never give up on my desires until I accomplish my goals no matter how long it takes me. See you all in the next Blog. Get ready...........